so its 4.51am. i woke up at around 3.10 from the pain and havent yet been able to sleep. i had the pin taken out of my femur on thursday, 3 days ago. the pain is excruciating. i was only in hospital over night, they gave me morphine again this time. although it did make it virtually painless, i could not stop itching the whole next day. anyway, i faked to the doctors that i had almost no pain so they leg me go early, the only problem with that was that they only gave me a script of panadine fort. panadine fort does nothing for this pain. i can hardly move. i have to sleep on my back, but since my back is fucked from being factured, that just adds more pain to the equasion. my leg is bruised and swollen as fuck and i can only wear dresses because nothing fits. it sucks, whatever.
i love my boyfriend. he came into hospital and stayed until he got kicked out. we had the cutest hangs. i made him lay on my bed and we played hangman and were just cute in general. im glad that we're back to how we used to be again. i just need him to realise that hes the only person bringing himself down.
