love. we all think of love as some great, beautiful thing... but we fail to see how it evokes such emotions as jealousy and pain. we say we love someone, yet we fight with that person, we say harsh things to hurt that person because our love for them has caused us to become jealous, paranoid and untrusting. we hurt the ones we love because we're too scared of getting hurt ourselves. shouldnt this 'love' make us want to put our loved one above and beyond ourselves? shouldnt 'love' make us want to protect them and make sure nothing will ever hurt tham? or are we just that selfish that we have lost everything we once believed in just to make sure we never feel any pain? we're hurting ourselves trying to save ourselves from the one thing that can truely help us.
ive been thinking alot about you lately, alot about us and how we used to be. i loved you with everything i was, but i got scared and pushed you away, over and over again. i am unbelievably ashamed of how i treated you, but in the end, youre happy now, and that is all i want for you. your happiness and wellbeing is all i care about. while our friendship now has to be on the dl, your texts keep me going. every second of every day, i will love you until i die, but our chapter finished a long, long time ago. i wish you well, friend.
