my life sucks. no, it doesnt actually. i just dont want it anymore. with the risk of sounding like an old bastard, im over the partying and going out. im over not doing anything with my life. i have huge, huge dreams and i know exactly what i want from life, but im stuck in the same place i have been since my 'crash of 08' and as much as i know how to get out of it, i completely lack any motivation to do so. ive got it so damn easy right now i guess im scared of what will happen. i need to be pushed off the deep end and made to fight. i just dont think i can do that by myself.
